I exist.
Tropes about/relating to Myself:
Physical/Sexuality
- Asexual: Asexual Aromantic to be specific. I have no interest in sexual activities or any type of romance. If anything, I find sexual intercourse unappealing on a base level, and while I did consider that it may just be a case of Paralyzing Fear of Sexuality since I thought I was capable of being aroused, it dawned on me that my "arousal" was just from general excitement and the like rather than any actual attraction, and am more likely to be uncomfortable in actual sexual situations. The closest I have to "attraction" is appreciating things on an aesthetic sense.
- Eerie Pale-Skinned Brunette: A few years back I decided to get myself a DNA test since, while we knew what my maternal lineage was, my paternal lineage was largely unknown due to my father being adopted and his biological records being misplaced. And while I'm pale as hell and a brunette, which could be attributed to my maternal grandfather coming from a German family, I still wanted to know if my ancestry played into my being so easily sunburned. As figured, I'm predominantly German, 40% specifically. Turns out I'm also 10% British, 3% Scandinavian, 10% broadly Northwestern European, 5% Spanish, and 12% Native American. Not that you'd know from looking at me, you'd probably just see a walking corpse. The permanent bags under my eyes and tear lines don't help.
- Older Than They Look: I've been described as having a baby-face, so even in my mid-twenties I'm mistaken for someone still in High School. While this isn't a problem when I have facial hair... I actively hate the feeling of facial hair and will go crazy with the electric razor and tweezers to get rid of any traces, so more often than not I still get mistaken for someone younger than I am.
- Prematurely Grey-Haired: I'm only 25 right now, and yet I'm already turning grey. Turns out it's actually a trait in my family, as my maternal great-grandfather had grey hair at my age too, and according to my maternal grandmother, it skips generations, so while her brother didn't have it and she had no sons, I likely have it just based on genetics.
Personality
- The Anti-Nihilist: I am genuinely of the belief that there is no inherit meaning in anything aside from what we ascribe to it. And as a result, it's best to live life the way you want to, the way that makes you feel fulfilled. Just because nothing matters objectively doesn't mean you can't make it matter to yourself.
- Being Human Sucks: Personal/Individual example. I really do not like having a flesh body. Bodily functions in general gross me out, I hate body hair so I end up going nuts trying to shave my face and spend over an hour alone on it, I have practically no pain tolerance, emotions being uncontrollable just brings me grief, etc. The day Brain Uploading becomes available, I'm signing up just so I can have a synthetic body instead of this stupid meatsack.
- Blue-and-Orange Morality: I'll admit, from an outside perspective, my morality would look heavily eschew. I'm not sure if I'm just wired differently or something, but I tend to think very differently from most people. I fully acknowledge that some of my thought processes could make me look like The Sociopath or like I'm heartless/cruel, but I do have a heart, it's just not attuned to the same things as others, same for my mind. For simplicities sake, it's easiest to describe myself as a moral relativist who believes people need to be somewhat selfish in order to survive, and that one should stand by their decisions without dressing it up with excuses.
- Brutal Honesty: Played with. I have practically no filter, will say what is on my mind even if it makes me come across as the asshole, and have no poker face. I do know when to keep my mouth shut though, more for pragmatic reasons than out of any sense of tact, and know the difference between being "truthful" and just being a "bully". So when I'm honest, I don't hold back, and make clear my intentions, but I don't go out of my way to insult people or pick fights. I don't sugarcoat, but I don't try to be hurtful. I will say what has to be said however even if it makes me look like the asshole.
- Hope Is Scary: I tend to dislike the idea of Hope just as much as I dislike the idea of Despair. Namely because Hope can inevitably lead to a Hope Spot, which just makes it hurt all the more when that Hope is dashed away. I don't subscribe to Despair either though as that can easily dominate you and leave you unable to feel any positive emotion. So I opt to believe that you should take life as it comes, no expectations whatsoever, neither good nor bad. Roll with the punches as it were.
- Intelligible Unintelligible: My mind is a scattered mess of jumbled thoughts on the best of days, so I can very easily have trouble articulating my thoughts in a cohesive manner, not helped by my being very verbose and struggling on how to be concise.
Dislikes
- Fan Dumb: I admit, I've grown sick of fandoms in general due to how rabid they can be. It can actually make it hard to enjoy a work at times when you see so many different fandom takes, treating it like a warzone of opinions, who will then attack you for not sharing the exact same opinion as them. I find the best fandoms are the ones that can take it easy and just enjoy a series for what it is rather than incite discourse with each new entry. For series like that, I have to actively ignore the fandoms outside of certain locations just so I can enjoy the show without feeling like I'm being judged.
- Hype Backlash: Okay, I just gotta vent for a second. Never before has a fandom ever made me actively hate a ship as much as the My Hero Academia one has. I'm not kidding when I say this fandom has made me hate the BakuDeku ship, both on the logistic side and the fandom side. I'm normally someone who embraces Polydoria, but the sheer hype backlash this fandom has given me makes me firmly go No Yay for BakuDeku.
- While not on the level of Romanticized Abuser, the idea of a romantic pairing between Izuku and Bakugo is, on a fundamental level, inherently unhealthy due to the fact a decade of their life was a dynamic of "bully" and "victim". And while Bakugo has apologized for his treatment of Izuku and wants to atone, and Izuku himself doesn't have hard feelings for the treatment, that speaks more to the mental and emotional baggage the two have that inherently taints the ship, and would require a metric fuckton of therapy to even approach being a healthy ship.
- The sheer level of mental gymnastics I've seen to claim Izuku is in love with Bakugo and that Hori is actively writing for that pairing, that anyone who opposes it is a "Toxic Shipper" or delusional, bringing it up even when Bakugo isn't even relevant to the current chapter and it's actively giving Ship Tease to the actual ship Hori is pushing, downplaying the bonds Izuku has with other characters in favor of shilling Bakugo, it gets so fucking annoying.
- Old Shame: I've occasionally said I lack shame of any kind, but it's more accurate to say that I lack immediate shame, but give me a week or so and I'll look back on things and develop shame over it, questioning exactly what my thought process at the time was.
- A lot of my old behavior on this site before 2021 I can't help but cringe at whenever I look back at it. Even some of my behavior during 2021 and up to the present day can get me cringing.
- I used to be a big fan and ardent defender of the series RWBY. Now, I am highly embarrassed about that period of my life, and while there are still characters from it I enjoy, I've largely sworn the show off and would prefer not being reminded of my involvement with it.
- I used to be a Know-Nothing Know-It-All when I was younger, and would refuse to admit I was ever wrong. Nowadays, I get very self-conscious about giving the impression off by accident, so I tend to do deep-dives into anything before I even think about posting anything in the forum out of concern I'll make a fool out of myself.
Harem Tropes
Do's and Don'ts
- Romantic Runner-Up: Not a particular fan of this trope, at least in regards to works in the Harem Genre. A core element of the genre tends to be about the relationships between the lead and their various love interests, but ones that go the route of monogamy and having a specific love interest "win" tend to end up annoying me, not because of shipping reasons, but because of emotional disappointment in spending so much time developing said relationships only for them to not go anywhere, especially if there is no In-Universe reason for the cast to be unable to simply practice polygamy outside of authorial intent, or because it just leads to Angst Aversion regarding the "losers". You're a harem series, embrace the Marry Them All route. Nisekoi and Yuuna and the Haunted Hot Springs are good examples:
- Nisekoi spends a long time sinking every relationship besides Raku and Chitoge, despite there being the perfect excuse for Raku to be with all of them, or at least Chitoge and Tsugumi, since he's a yakuza prince. And it just gets annoying when one of the longest running plot lines, Raku's past with his "promised girl", ends up being entirely inconsequential, since Onedera was the "promised girl", but Raku still chose Chitoge, so what was even the point of that subplot if it didn't matter?
- Yuuna meanwhile shows the downside of such an ending. While some series like to act like the "losers" could still be friends with the winners despite everything, Yuuna goes to show how that's not always gonna happen, since after Kogarashi picks Yuuna and they get married... everyone just drifts apart, since it hurts too much to see Kogarashi married to someone else and it isn't easy for them to move on. Add on that, with the heartbreak affecting them mentally and skill-wise, it means most of the "losers" end the series losing in more ways than one.
- Single-Target Sexuality: The bane of any good harem series is when the main character only has eyes for a single character, and that factoid gets made apparent very early in the series. Unless the intent is to subvert the trope, doing so may as well be the Shipping Bed Death for an entire harem, since at that point it doesn't matter how many new potential love interests are introduced, if the main lead only has eyes for one, then it's just a waste of time.
- It's for this reason why I dislike the "harem" aspect of Sword Art Online. The Aincrad arc made it perfectly clear that Kirito and Asuna were pretty much the Official Couple of the series, even when you also had Silica and Lisbeth also in love with Kirito. At least with these three, it was more understandable since you could see it as a love rectangle and Asuna was a case of First Girl Wins... but then you introduce other girls while Asuna gets sidelined like Leafa, Sinon, and Alice, all of whom start getting Ship Tease with Kirito... yet Kirito and Asuna remain the main couple, with the others, while being Kirito's "friend group", more accurately being his harem following around in the vain hope he'll eventually reciprocate. Something the abridged series wisely did was eliminate the harem aspect for this series, since it frankly doesn't belong just by virtue of establishing an Official Couple that is kept monogamous. Certainly helps later on when Asuna gets her A Day in the Limelight via the Mother's Rosario arc, with Kirito's only real appearance that arc having him supporting Asuna rather than the other way around.
- It's likewise the reason why I'm hesitant to start the Monogatari series. Just on reputation alone, and aided by some actual research done on my own time, I'm well aware that the Official Couple between Araragi and Senjogahara is established early on, but Araragi is still a Clueless Chick-Magnet who manages to gain the affections of multiple female. And while the series is allegedly parodying the harem genre by doing that, and uses their getting over their feelings for him as a vehicle for Character Development, it requires using the fact Araragi is taken as a plot point while turning Senjogahara into a plot device, and in turn feels like a time waste when the characters could have just not had feelings for him in the first place and still had their characterizations explored.
- Hanekawa in particular seems to be an example based on what I've read, since she has a lot of history with him and seems like she'd be a natural fit for him, yet the series makes the declaration that Senjogahara is the only one for Araragi, made more egregious by the most popular iteration of the franchise to my understanding, Kizumonogatari, gives a lot of Ship Tease to Araragi and Hanekawa and is set before the former meets Senjogahara but was released after, making it a Foregone Conclusion that despite all their focus, Araragi and Hanekawa will not get together. Even worse since, based on some research, Hanekawa does get a bit of Les Yay with Senjogahara, so you'd think she of all people would be able to be with Araragi and Senjogahara in a One True Threesome.
Pages I've made, had a hand in designing, or am a significant contributor to for things I'm still invested in:
- Adaptation Expansion
- Character Pages
- Fanfics
- For Want of a Nail
- Laconic
- Series
- Trivia
- Web Animation
- Web Comic
- Web Video
- Wild Mass Guessing
- YMMV
Pages I've made, had a hand in designing, or was a significant contributor to that I no longer care for/lost interest in:
- Anime
- Character Pages
- Fanfics
- For Want of a Nail
- Trivia
- Web Animation
- YMMV
